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Grace Is

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

You’re a dream
You’re a dream
But I’m not asleep
There’s a party
There’s a party
And you want us to go
You’ll talk about your life and
How close you’ve come
And I’ll walk out because I’ve
Heard it all before

Into the Night
Out of our youth we
Move into thinking
The world is bigger
Bigger than you and me

In your 20’s
In you 20’s
You’re supposed to know
Unless you’re unconventional
Like most of us are
Wanting a trophy for
Fighting a good fight
Maybe there’s a prize
When you know what’s enough

Chorus

The sky seems endless
Like our choices
The moon casts a light
To show what grace is

You’re a dream
You’re a dream
But I’m not asleep
You walk into the room
Like it’s an 80’s movie
In this life there’s no
Guarantees
Passion’s a gamble

Chorus

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South Pacific

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

I was half way through the book
When he took it and tossed it
Garage sale trip to boot
To the South Pacific
I don’t know how it ends and
These characters still wait here
In my head
What will become of them?

I never believed in ghosts till I became one to you
I make you feel uneasy I’m sorry

It feels like your some sort of stain
On the pages of my life
When I whisper out your name
You don’t comprehend
Another effort gone to waste
Like I’m on a different
Frequency

I never believed in ghosts till I became one to you
I make you feel uneasy I’m sorry

It’s so much easier when you don’t believe the things you can’t see
You know that I exist but it’s less painful for you if you
Cover up your eyes and your ears and your mouth

I never believed in ghosts till I became one to you
I make you feel uneasy I’m sorry
Like a leaf pressed in a book
I’m trapped here I’ll remain
I’ll hold my breath till you can bare me

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On and On

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

I don’t know what you expect from me
But I know I’m not delivering
I don’t know who I’m supposed to be
And I know you don’t approve

You spend your time making sure I
Know where my place is
But I was never typical and everything is shifting

On and On and On and On
On and On and On It goes
On and On and On and On
And On

I know the game the one you like
It’s been around for ages
The one where you expect too much
And I can never measure up

I’ve seen you work the room your know
Man I’ve heard your bullshit
How can I take your pity or praise
If you never mean what you say?

Chorus

What did I do? To bring you to me
What should do? I’m too I’m too naïve

I’m not angry I’m sad about
The fact that you are
Just another person who thinks
They’ve got me figured out

People tell you what they think
About your face, about your words
About your life
I used to lick up the crumbs
They’d spill but I care less and less each day
About what they think of me

Chorus

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In The Noise

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale, Additional Music by Russell Broom
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

She says only you
Can pull yourself up
Feel it in your bones
As you come to surface
You want to set up camp
For a while, a one man show
You don’t know what to do
You’d best do what you know

You’ve lost your voice
Lost your course
In the lights
Lost your nerve
Your purpose
In the noise

Paper dolls in a row
They’re easy to separate
Just tear along the fold
Along the parts been worn
You want to make a pact
You want to devastate
But you don’t know if it’s just
Too late

Chorus

It’s time to start
Though it’s never a good time
But once you start
You won’t want to let the thread drop

You find something to
Fill this hole
From beating your head against the wall
She says only you
Can patch things up
Between your spirit and your
Heart

Chorus

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In Your World

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale, Additional Music by Russell Broom
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

In your world things are neat
Tiny categories
Things are wrong or things are right
In your mind
Everyday is quite the same
Excuses and complaints
You’re alone but we’re to blame every time

I can only visit in your world
In your world
Only for a moment in your world
In your world
What is it that you want from this world
From this world hey
I love you but you’re consumed

In your world you know best
You’re excellent at defense
Even when you make no sense you
Still look good
And success is for your friends and
Secretly you despise them
But if you don’t play then you
Don’t win and you know you know better

Chorus

And outside influences
All advice and opinions
They weight heavy on you
So you stay in bed
What will you exist on when
These investors have moved on you
Turn the TV on
But it’s not your friend

Chorus

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Closure

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

I called you
You’d left home
I assume
Cause I don’t know
I called you
For Closure

I drove all
The way here
So many days
I kept on
I drove home
For Closure

Why
Can’t I fix this by myself?
How
can I
Tell myself what I need to hear from you?

I’ll follow
You for years
Inventing facts
In my mind
Created
For Closure

Maybe you’re
Average
Living out a
Average life
Never once
Thinking of me

Why
Can’t I fix this by myself?
How
can I
Tell myself what I need to hear from you?
You
You
You
Why
Can’t I fix this by myself?
How
can I
Tell myself what I need to hear from you?

Will this space
In my heart
Remain a space
To be filled
By you
Forever?

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Modest Lovely

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale and Andrew Cash
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

You’re a beauty baby and you can’t stop that light from shining
You’re so modest lovely come on come out of hiding

If I died tomorrow, you’d know I tried my best to show you
You’re so modest lovely, the world needs someone like you
Someone like you
Someone like you

You’re a beauty baby and you can’t stop that light from shining
You’re so modest lovely come on come out of hiding

You’re so quiet baby you’re walking softly upon this earth
In this dry and parched land you’re a rain cloud ready to burst
Ready to burst
Ready to burst

You’re a beauty baby and you can’t stop that light from shining
You’re so modest lovely come on come out of hiding
You’re a beauty baby come and let the sun in
I know it’s scary to stop your running

You’ll stay in hiding till you draw the light in
You’ll stay in hiding, when you gonna start breathing?

You’re a beauty baby and you can’t stop that light from shining
You’re so modest lovely come on come out of hiding

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Beast

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

You’re all business on the phone
I get the point it’s up to me
I’m not about to let you go
When it seems I still need you

As if I don’t understand the pressure
Fumbling trying to get my shit together

Get on and ride it
Get on and ride it honey
I’ll ride this beast into the sunset

And when we bring somebody in
To pay the rent so I can dream

They’ll tell you that you’re gifted
Don’t it seem like some gifts make life complicated

Get on and ride it
Get on and ride it honey
I’ll ride this beast into the sunset

Then you trip on your expectations
Go dig your heels deeper into this dream
They’ll tell you that they finally understand
You’ll know that all the time you believed

Get on and ride it
Get on and ride it honey
I’ll ride this beast into the sunset
Get on and ride it
Get on and ride it honey
I’ll ride this beast into the sunset

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Hopeful Again
Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

You You know that I’m weak for you
For years I’ve kept my eye on you
I plan oh I project my thoughts
On how life might have been with you

Oh this must stop when you’re gone
I die a little more each time
Till you smile then I’m hopeful again
Oh this must stop you ignore me and I know better yet
Things might change so I’m hopeful again

Now I thought I was better
Less dependent on what you give to me
But the lack of attention
Wears me down and soon I’m back to being weak

Oh this must stop when you’re gone
I die a little more each time
Till you smile then I’m hopeful again
Oh this must stop you ignore me and I know better yet
Things might change so I’m hopeful again

You’re always way over there
I’m always down on knees
Praying for something to change
Too many people
Too many things stand between you and me
Maybe it’s not meant to be

Chorus

Chorus

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I Know

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

You can’t eat
You’re so tired
You wanna die
But you can’t say why

The accident
The pain
The past
Reliving it again

Oh you want to cry but your bones have no tears

Are you gonna fight?
Are you gonna fight for your life?
I want to believe you but I don’t
Are you gonna fight?
Aren’t you gonna fight for yourself?
I want to believe you but I don’t

You can’t see
You can’t think
You still keep on
Wondering

Just how much space your body is taking up

Chorus

I used to stay at your house
And I’d watch you undress
Oh, how I wish that I looked like you did
Can you explain all of this my friend
How you could do this to yourself?

Therapy sucks but
What sucks more
Is giving up
and never getting help

There is not a day that goes by
There is not an hour
When I didn’t wish that I was
Somehow smaller
But for you most of all
It’s not about being small
You wish that you didn’t exist at all

Chorus

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Stumbling Onwards

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

Secretly staring at
The pattern of your jeans
Even though we were young
Baby I knew you’d be a good one

When you got married I knew
I could never come back to this place and time
Now there are curfews on daydreams
Reality tucks us in bed at night

Some house party down the street
Sipping beer instead of words
Do we even make our choices?
Or are we blindly stumbling onwards?

When you got married I knew
I could never come back to this place and time
Now there are curfews on daydreams
Reality tucks us in bed at night

I’m missing the idea of a life
That was never mine

You said, “What’s a little sex,
A little sex between friends?”
Well, I wonder what would have happened
If we had

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Subdivisions

Music by Geddy Lee and Alex Lifeson, Lyrics by Neil Peart
© Anthem Entertainment Group

Sprawling on the fringes of the city
In geometric order
An insulated border
In between the bright lights
And the far unlit unknown

Growing up it all seems so one-sided
Opinions all provided
The future pre-decided
Detached and subdivided
In the mass production zone
Nowhere is the dreamer or the misfit so alone

In the high school halls
In the shopping malls
Conform or be cast out
In the basement bars
In the backs of cars
Be cool or be cast out
Any escape might help to smooth the unattractive truth
But the suburbs have no charms to soothe the restless dreams of youth

Drawn like moths we drift into the city
The timeless old attraction
Cruising for the action
Lit up like a firefly
Just to feel the living night

Some will sell their dreams for small desires
Or lose the race to rats
Get caught in ticking traps
And start to dream of somewhere
To relax their restless flight
Somewhere out of a memory of lighted streets on quiet nights

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Get By

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Vacation Records 2006 / Thithali Publishing

I’m on the couch and I’m playing
You call me up and you say
We’ll get through this
Do what you do- should be happy

Losing another day job
The apartment is falling apart
We hold each others hands under the bed sheets
And we

Oh get by
Oh get by

I like to be understood
You like to be left alone
I get that and you get me and
So on we go

Once in a while we fight
Over our powerless lives
Don’t catch many breaks
But we are good people

Oh get by
Oh get by
Oh get by