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Engage

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

Time it moves quickly
More than it ever did
Struggle seems to be the only thing that keeps up to it
You’re quite far away shrinking under this airplane

I can see the swimming pools of LA
Turquoise plastic ovals in the terrain
I can remember all these things
But I have forgotten how to make friends

As a child I loved aero planes
They helped get away
But this grown up brain is mortified as we take off the runway
All I’ve got left is your face
So much distance, can change

I can feel the air pressure engage
All the little houses below are like play things
I will remember all these things
But I have forgotten how to make friends

I need you to be someone
Someone with a dream
Someone with an idea that I believe in

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Hesitate

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

Don’t wait don’t wait don’t hesitate
Don’t make don’t make excuses
You’ve been wanting this your whole life
Don’t wait don’t wait don’t look away
It may or it may not come again
You’ve been wanting this your whole life
And you deserve a little joy
The water below is deep and cold
Oh the water below is unknown
The water below is deep and cold
But that water below is where you have to go
You’ve been wanting this your whole life

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A Stone

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

We tried to sleep but the bed was lumpy
I tried to scream but nothing came out
Oh when you pray for something you desire
But all that you get is quiet more quiet
And the wind blows

I recognize this place I’ve been here before
You expect me to watch as it all falls away
It seems like I have no control

Tried to create but the hurdles they grew
D loves to debate the obvious truth
And I try to undo the knot I have tied myself to my dreams
Now I’m sinking like a stone and the wind just blows

I recognize this place I’ve been here before
You expect me to be strong though I can’t find my faith
I feel like I have no control
If you lean back with your head out of this shit
Life maps out everything
Something’s make room for others to collide
You cannot get your way all the time

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Lose a Little Blood

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

You’re in the other room
You both deciding my future did anybody ask about me?
I could dress up in my old clothes
And sneak out underneath your noses
But adulthood is in my way

You never said when you shed your skin
That you lose a little blood too
Even a butterfly, endures the darkness for a while

I could not sit or lie down for a week
Then it became a month and i broke
When i looked in the mirror i saw nothing familiar
I am calling my mother right now

She never said, when you shed your skin
That you lose a little blood too
Even a butterfly, endures the darkness for a while

Don’t worry i know it hurts
I know it’s tough
If diamonds are made under pressure
Then you’re taken care of
I don’t miss my old self now that i am catching on but it comes when you least expect

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Your Hand

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

I catch your hand
As we walk up the quiet street
Smell the fall see the castles
Maybe one day we’ll have a place of our own
With enough space for me to write
And for you and your drums

As we walk you share your plan
And you’d like to know what I’m thinking
What I’m dreaming
If you just look at my face
It’s the proof
All the plans I make are plans to be with you

I thought I might write you a song
But words can’t define love
I just thank you for not giving up

I catch your hand
As we walk through life
Through it’s brick walls we go together
As we run you share a plan
And you’d like to know what I’m thinking
What I’m dreaming

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Matching Sweaters

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

Matching sweaters and hand-me-downs
You can rake autumn up but you can’t take her
Out I’m sure they were smiles when we were born

It’s not the first time
It’s not the first time
You asked me to stop
After the first time your skin just toughens up

Late at night I’d
Put my hand against the wall
To let you know
That I think you are pretty brave
To bare it on your own
Put when you shake me off
I think there’s a storm
And it’s coming out my mouth

It’s not the first time
Not the first time you’ve asked him to stop
After the first time your skin just toughens up

When he shakes it makes me think
There’s a storm and it’s heading our way

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Draw a Line

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

I want to run but I won’t
I’m in love and the sunlight pins me down
Losing track of my mind now I know that you’re mine
The years roll by

I draw a line
And I say you can’t cross
But that line just won’t stay
The mind loves to create and erase

I trace your skin with my lips
You’re still sleeping
It’s the best time for making up
You make me tea you make me cry
You’re always pushing me than always taking your sweet ass time

Can I stay ok think I’ll stay
You know I’ve never stayed before
Losing track of your mind
Now you know that you’re mine
But my eye is on the door

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Vacation

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

It was almost perfect
With my head on your chest
You tasted warm like comfort
I get rocked to sleep
By the crashing waves tonight
The driver asks if we’re married you say not yet

I’m dreaming about our vacation
I just dream and I keep bringing it up
You just let me

Something about the moon and the salt
And watching waves break
Making love and touching each other all day
Boy I tire of your silence
Now those crashing waves are absent
I thought I’d said it’s important you say not yet

I made room for you
I made room for you
I made room for you
I made room for you
I made time for you
I made space for you and all I want is the same

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No Longer Here

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

The steering wheel is under my nails
My mouth is stale but my coffee is warm
It’s five in the morning
Distant orange yonder knows my fate
Its radiance is guiding my way
It’s five in the morning

When I arrive
I’m gonna lose my care
For what’s no longer here
When I arrive
I’m gonna lose my care
For what’s no longer here

Maybe you like it here
You don’t even try to dig in
And review your life you won’t strive like me
Love I’m moving moving away
From all the people the people
Who won’t change for me

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Threefour

Music and Lyrics by Anita Athavale
© Mermaid Lake Music 2002

You’re holding the gun
That means you’re the one who is shooting
That means you’re the one in control
The construction men are astounded
They don’t have the tools to fix my soul

It keeps singing your sweet words
Are all I need
Your sweet words are pain relief

So, I keep running
There are so many things to do
You won’t say love for free
Like a scavenging bird I am over everything you say
Looking for whatever it was you were withholding

Your sweet words
Are all I need
Your sweet words are pain relief
Your sweet words don’t come easy
I can’t feel it
I can’t feel it when you speak
The more you hold back the more I seem to need
Your sweet words are pain relief
Your sweet words don’t come easy